It has been five years since I have written on my Blog, which made me kind of sad as writing was always a therapeutic escape for me and a wonderful way to remember special moments of my life and adventures. As I re-read several earlier posts that brought me to tears and laughter, I have decided to start blogging again. Not because I actually think that people are reading but for my own health and the immortal value of the written word. Essentially to be more mindful of my surroundings.
Fast Forward to September 2017...I have been married for 2 1/2 years, own a beautiful home thanks to my talented husband and now have the privilege of being Gordon's Mommy. Oh yeah and Penelope's mommy, our cute and naughty bulldog. After a long distance relationship from SF to Omaha, Nebraska of all places, my company was gracious enough to let me migrate south to our LA office and for the last 4 1/2 years we have been living in the pasadena area. I literally never thought I would live in LA, but you know, life couldn't really get much better, we get sun year round and live close to the foothills and have a huge backyard and pool so never say never about loving living in LA if you are an SF kinda girl :)
Now for the good stuff....
Mr. Gordon...born Jan 9th 2017
My bouncing baby boy is just over 8 months old, he is starting to crawl in small spurts and is throwing hilarious temper tantrums when he does not get his way. This child seriously is non-stop entertainment and although he has only been in my life for 8 months there is no life without Mr. Gordon in it! His smile is truly contagious and I know that he is going to bring out the best in people as he already does with his parents. It is so serial to think that I am a mother and for anyone who knows me well, there was a time that I was convinced that I would never have children. Not because I do not like children, I just wasn't sure that I would be able to be that self-less in order to have children. If it weren't for Mr. Cody I don't think I would have ever had the guts to have children, he inspires me to do great things and above all to be a better person. Honestly, you need to be a better version of yourself in order to have children, because those that remain selfish will never be able to give enough of themselves to their children. Having children is the most self-less thing you will ever do in your life, if you do it right.
Becoming a parent has made me aware that I may never again feel the same type of confidence in my decisions that I once did because I am constantly second guessing what is best for Gordon and sometimes that decision is not always clear at the time that you must make it. All I know is that I love him with all of my heart and I am going to make mistakes, but I will make every effort possible to make sure that there is never an inkling of a doubt in his mind that his mother and father both love him unconditionally. No matter what happens, no matter what argument occurs or path he chooses in life he will have our unwavering support in life. We all need this sense of security from our parents, without this who do you call at the end of the day to let them know that you are home safely? I think that sometimes people just have children to have children and they do not stop to think what this new role means and what the obstacles will be in having children. We all tend to focus on the milestones but the journey to get there is what is important. I am truly lucky to have a happy, healthy baby and a supportive, kind, loving husband. These are things I hope to never take for granted, not even for a moment.
I guess my point is this, when dealing with loved ones try to follow these rules so that you can maintain these important relationships that we all need in Life....
"From the Dalai Lama"
Follow the 3 R’s: Respect for self. Respect for others. Responsibility for all your actions.
Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
Don’t let a little dispute injure a great relationship.
When you realize that you made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
Open arms to change, but don’t let go of your values.
Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
Last but not least...live in the present and be mindful.
Claire Sowa
