Logic

Who knows why we think the way that we do, other than the logical influences in our lives. But what about the un-explained? What about the thoughts that are unexplained and unresolved? Do we ignore these presumptions only to rationalize them as pre-meditated thoughts and nothing more? I remember writing a letter to my mother when I was little explaining to her that I was crazy and although I was very young I cannot help but think that this element of my life may always stick with me....for there have been moments far and few between where I have actually felt "normal." I feel connections with lots of different walks of life, but after analysis I feel that my so-called category in life does not exist, or better said, cannot be defined. Walking though life without a clue of what I want, I somehow know what I need and yet there always seems to be some obstacle preventing me from what I truly seek out of life. Wondering now when I will feel those butterflies in my stomach that I long for but cannot create. Such a sensation cannot be created, however the longer we go without feeling them the more we doubt that they exist. Mind over matter, is what they say.... but how long must we wait? Must be a story without an ending for now.........